Life ...

Sometimes no matter how much you plan and prepare, life comes along and knocks you down... right down onto the ground!!

It comes from all angles and seems to enjoy tripping you up and seeing if you manage to stay up or if you're going to come crashing down.

I've done quite a lot of crashing down lately - not coping with the demands of being a mom is the big one at the moment. It's a constant sacrifice to give of yourself, your time, your energy, everything that makes you who you are and be a mom.

Robyn has returned to school and so now Jared doesn't have a "friend" around the house so I've become "friend". In fact, he loves his "friend" so much that I can't even go to the toilet without him following me there and shouting at me to show him how I weewee!!! Don't worry I don't show him - but that is the extent of NO PRIVACY in my life right now.

I love my kids but there are moments in my week that I just want to drop them all off somewhere (it would be a safe somewhere not on the side of the N2) and not be a mom for a while. I want to be selfish for a while, but that just isn't how it works!

Another reason why I think I'm feeling so drained is Quen's working hours. He works INSANE hours and we don't really see him during the week and when we do he is so tired he can hardly talk. But even though I miss him so much I am truly grateful to him for trying so hard to look after his family financially. I think of Quen as my hero right now - he has a lot of pressures in his life, but he is managing to stay strong and generally positive.

So yes, life does try knock you down - but I guess that's just life. What's that saying... it's not how many times you get knocked down that counts, it's the getting up again that's important!